Saturday, May 30, 2009

Quiet is not bad

How would you feel if someone threatend to make your summer hell just because you didn't know what to say. I hate it when parents assume that you think you're better than everyone just because you're quiet sometimes.

Angry, probably won't be posting if my parents keep on assuming.

-----Edit, this last part is being added a bit later than the first part.

Not talking is a defensive mechanism of mine. I'd rather not say anything if what I'm going to say is bitter, sarcastic, or boring. Mainly the boring part. I don't like boring my family. It's hard for me to talk to my family, which is absurd because I've known them all my life.

I hate to admit to this, but it is so much easier to talk to a complete stranger at a theme park while in a line waiting for a ride. However, according to my parents who are upset that I can't talk to my family, it hurts their feelings that I can't say more than a sentance to them.

I think I've gone over this subject before, but let me just reiterate. My parents think punishment to me is sending me to my mom's house for a while. Really? Do they think I hate my mom that much? Also, I have a feeling that they're going to pull a lot of things away from me this summer, including trips.

And I'm expecting a lot of chores and odd jobs. My last conversation with my stepmom she said something about "working your ass off if you don't straighten up".

However, I'll still stand with my belief that arguing with them is pointless. Parents will be parents, which means whether or not if they're right they are still going to induce punishment and hell. Then, while I'm being punished they'll wonder why I'm not smiley and happy and think that I have a bad attitude and punish me some more.

It's a circle---- of nonproductivity, unless you count making me wish I was 18 productive.

Who knows, they might. The worst part is, my grandma who is only being a grandma, tells my parents that I'm not a blabber mouth, and they interpret that into, "Our daughter is a snob and is angry at us for sending her away for the weekend, so she's going to hurt everyone's feelings by not talking to them."

No exageration on that part. My stepmom basically said that while I was talking to her this morning.


  1. Thats the positive thinking I have :)

    And it sucks about you not being able to talk to your family. I'm not going to say I know how that feels because I don't but being forced to go to your mum's is a bit of a weird punishment :/

    Hope things work out!

  2. Bah, parents are just an odd bunch. They find it weird when they're child doesn't act like they assume a teenage stereotype to act and then they get defensive and angry. They think by punishing you, you'll act the way they want you to.

    I hope you don't have to get into anything you don't want... >< Gah, parents are douchbags some times...

  3. Don't worry, my parents are just as bad ... if that helps :)
    But you may as well stay positive, what have you got to lose?
    Good luckw it though! x

  4. Ah, parents will never FULLY understand, I don't think. Good luck with this whole situation.