Wednesday, August 31, 2011


I thought today was going to go well, and I guess to the naked eye it went fine. In fact, one could even say I was almost a little too cheery.

My APES (AP Environmental Science) teacher gives extra credit to her students who dress up every other Wednesday, and today I thought would be the perfect day to give my new grey dress an outing! I wore it at the Z-Club induction tea ceremony as well, and got a lot of compliments on it, so I decided why not wear it again.

A lot of people were confused because they thought I was a teacher >.> Personally I thought I looked like a cute paralegal

I was proud of myself because I spent the entire day in heels and didn’t flinch. Hooray for my strong female tolerance that allows me to endure uncomfortable shoes!

Anyways, on my way to school I got an awful text. Apparently my mom is pregnant. I don’t know if it’s true or not, but the thought makes me want to vomit in a sad/nervous way. I’m 95% positive that she’s doing it to spite my dad because he has me, my younger sisters, and Steven (who’s technically my half brother, but whatever he’s my baby brother nonetheless) and she wants something to fill some void that she has.

Ok. I’m 17. My mom is 40 and a hypochondriac. Most likely I’ll end up taking care of my future sibling (if there is one) by the time I’m 25. AWESOME. I’d like to say that I’m happy for her and my stepdad, but frankly I just feel sad for their future kid who is going to be born into a really messed up situation because inevitability the kid is going to be compared to my brother a lot and he’s going to have some issues because my mom is really good about causing her children to need a therapist.


And yesterday Root sent me a friend request on facebook (suspiciously right after he and his girlfriend broke up). I think this is the 5th or 6th time I’ve re-added him. He made my life crap for about 2 years before I was finally rid of him. Now he’s put up an old picture that I drew for him as his profile picture and a status that eludes to something that I used to joke about concerning him. I honestly don’t have time to deal with him. I figure if I just add him and ignore him I’ll be ok. I mean, ignoring him in real life by avoiding his workplace and Starbucks has worked well for me so far, so avoiding him online shouldn’t be too hard.

And to top off everything, my school's principal, who is notorious for saying NO to everything is trying to put a damper on my friend Madelyn's plans to start a Invisible Children group at our school. Whatever. If the school won't sponsor it then we'll just start a community group in order to raise awareness. Sure it'll be harder because we have ZERO resources, but I feel so strongly about this cause that at this point I'm willing to do anything to make sure it happens.

Ugh. I really need to just leave my town for a little while. Only 10 more months until I leave for college in North Carolina….


  1. I wish my teachers gave me extra credit for dressing up all pretty and stuff... haha. But yay for surviving in heels! :)

    Oh wow, I don't know what to say about your mom being pregnant! If it is true, that would be sorta crazy to have a sibling 17 years younger than you... I hope everything works out. :/

    And aw man, I'm sorry your principal was stupid. What was the problem?! I mean, honestly.

    Seriously though. Can this year be over yet? I'm only 2 days in and I'm already checked out....

  2. I guess I should say congrats for the whole pregnancy thing, although clearly it's not so black and white!

    Also, be wary of rebounds - If a guy has just broken up with their girlfriend, they tend to go on abit of a sexual rampage. If this is the 5th of 6th time you've re-added him, maybe it would be wise to ignore him / keep him at arm's length.x

  3. @Natalie I know right? Currently I'm just looking forward to Christmas.

    @Luke Yeah, I'm definitely aware of a rebound scenario so aside from adding him I've been avoiding him. Not to mention I got a new cell number this year so he hasn't been able to call or text me. Thanks for the advice!

  4. WOW. Your mom is pregnant. I love babies in general, but the reasons for your mom having the baby sound Also, I do agree with you: The baby will definitely be born into a strange situation. Nonetheless, I hope everything is okay and iA hopefully the baby will come out super adorable (:

    My cousin (I've mentioned her on my blog like a million times, haha) is seventeen, and her mom is having a baby this month. So.

    :D Your teacher is so awesome! I seriously wish my teachers did that! I'd totally stock up on dresses.

    What's wrong with an Invisible Children group?!?! That's a GOOD CAUSE, like duh. Ugh. People these days...