Friday, September 16, 2011


I hate that my non-AP friends don’t understand what I’m going through. Whenever I tell them that I have a lot of homework, or that I’m stressed about my classes all they say is “that sucks” and just laugh. Sometimes they just tell me to quit AP since I’m so stressed.

No. I’m not quitting AP. The only way I won’t be in an AP class is if the teacher throws me out themself (which my AP Govt. teacher is currently doing to a lot of people because she’s hell-bent on expelling everyone that she thinks won’t make a 3 or higher on the AP exam). It’s not that I need these classes per se, but the point of taking the classes is to adequately prepare myself for a rigorous college workload.

If I quit AP then who’s to say I won’t quit classes when I get into college because they stress me out?

Is a little understanding too much to ask for?

Now, I’m not saying everyone is like this. However the people who are like that really annoy me. Like my grandma (you know, the one that ALWAYS comes over). When she heard about my course load she said “Well, you must not have taken all of your hard classes first.”

Well damn. I’ve done nothing BUT taken hard classes (sans math, which is hard enough for me without being an honors class).

I don’t know. I just want people to be aware that my occasional panic attacks, crazy antics, and pained expressions aren’t because I’m making a big deal out of nothing. I’m making a big deal out of MY FFFing EDUCATION, meaning: I’m trying to start on the right path so I can eventually live my ideals.

“Being realistic is the most common path to mediocrity.”
Will Smith


  1. I understand and can relate completely. AICE is basically AP, if not a little "harder" because the Brits write things like, liters as cubic decimeters and are just generally more cryptic in their questions.

    I have very few non-AICE friends, but there are some of my friends who opted to take the easier courses like Environmental Management and Thinking Skills instead of Biology, Chemistry and Physics. Yeah, sure, I opted to take these classes yet can't I get more support and encouragement while doing so. Excuse us for caring about our education!

    But I digress.

    P.S. I have had to deal with a lot of stress lately. I worry now that I have Temporomandibular joint disorder (TMJ)...

  2. Stick to your classes as long as you can still keep up with it and want to do it. But I'm not happy that the teacher is throwing people off the course just because they might not get those grades.

  3. Keep pushing!! Keep reaching!! IT's gonna be worth it. I wish my school offered more than ONE A.P. class...hahaha!

  4. The hard work now does make the journey down the line easier, I'll give you that much. But it's also important not to burn yourself out, you know? You're still young. You're only like this for SUCH a short time in your life, no real adult responsibilities and other bs -- don't let it all go to waste.

    I mean yeah, fair enough this period in your life counts too; but not just for working too hard and stressing. It's perfectly ok to take some time off and just do SH*T-ALL just because. We all deserve to unwind once in a while.

    Don't push yourself too hard. Plus, you already seem smarter than a shatload of people I know that are my age... so yeah, you've got a fair bit of leeway ;).

    Take it easy.

  5. One simple rule of thumb-If you're getting panic attacks, or you're seiously stressed about your classes, so much so that you can't relax sometimes, then it's time to lighten your workload.
    I guess since it's your first month or so you find it quite tough, but if you think you can still do it, then do.

  6. hold on as much as you can, and then even more. you can do it if you really try

  7. keep going! you know you can do it! :D

  8. I definitely know how you feel. AP is slowly consuming my soul. I don't know what the point is anymore. Luckily, I got to skip Gov and go straight to US History, but I'm slowly starting to regret it...

    My verification word is "chest." Ha.

  9. Yep, I know exactly how you feel. It's so irritating when I say anything about how much stuff I have to do, my friends just say "well then quit!" or "well YOU'RE the one that chose to take it!" Yeah, I know. But like you said, that doesn't mean we can't get any understanding or empathy at all, does it? Argh. So frustrating. But we can do it.

  10. Amen to that. A lot of people just don't understand that getting a good education is harder and in order to get what is desired you need to work harder. There is a lot of competition right now and what you are doing is just helping you so that later on you will hopefully not have to deal with all this. We are just simply getting the hard parts out of the way (if not just making the harder parts easier)...if this makes sense!

  11. I think you're inspiring. I'll leave it at that.

  12. I hate it when my friends are like that. My ex would always make fun of me for studying and it's like "FFFFUUUU. I WANT A FUTURE!"

    I always think that if I break a sweat now. I'll be able to do what I want in the future as motivation. Hang in there.

  13. I know what you mean about AP because I went through IB.

    You certainly work harder and you're constantly questioning yourself but I'm sure you'll make it through just fine. I did.