And I mean, honestly, the only thing holding me back is the tiny voice in my head whispering "suck it up" as I grit my teeth and bear it.
My dad is utterly convinced that I'm not pushing myself nearly enough and it's gotten to the point where I've ended up pulling two muscles trying to follow his instructions.
I feel like he's constantly trying to get me to give up, but unfortunately for him I'm too damn stubborn to admit that I'm about to pass out from exhaustion.
Saturday my dad was giving me the usual, biting, "How bad do you want to be successful? Because right now you're not showing me anything." speech and as per usual I sucked it up and pretended to ignore him. It's what I do best. We were doing a particularly taxing core workout, and my dad's comments were really starting to get to me. I was in pain. A lot of pain, actually, and I could feel my left abdominal muscles tighten and pull. My dad was determined to make me "go the extra mile" and add 100 sit-ups after our 45 minute core session, but it was too much. I ended up pulling on of my ab muscles soon after I started my sit-ups, and it somehow ended up being my fault.
- I should have spoken up
- I'm not consuming enough calories
- I'm not drinking enough water
Yeah. Pretty much all those reasons are BS. If I would have spoken up my dad would have just told me that I wasn't pushing myself enough (believe me, I hear that phrase about 5 times a day), I consume high protein foods and I try to get at least 1800-2000 calories a day, and I drink water like a fish. No really. It's not unusual for me to go through 8 bottles of water in a day.
UGH. I know that when I go to basic training I'll have asshole TI's dishing out worse things, but I can handle that. I won't take that personally because it's their job to be an asshole and prepare me for everything. My dad? I take it highly personally when he acts like a douche hole to me. He's my dad. He's supposed to support me, not make me feel like a weak idiot.
As per usual, I will suck it up.