Tomorrow I'll post about my weekend adventures, but right now I'm just going to ramble.
I know I'm leaving soon. Like, duh, I've only been counting down all the days. I'm excited, scared, sad, happy, and everything in-between.
My parents, especially my stepmom, have been hounding me about my relationship with JB. Yes. He's 8 years older than me. Yes. My grandmother will probably disown me if she knew about us. They're like a broken record. Other things they say:
"We don't want you to throw away your future for him."
"He's already had time to find himself and get settled."
"Don't tie yourself down to one person so soon."
And I'm just like, HOLD UP. Did I miss the memo about when our relationship got that serious? Apparently I did.
Last time I checked, I'm still leaving in February... Whether or not I'm still in a relationship is entirely up to me. I'm still going to live my life and do everything I want to do, regardless.
I mean, while I'm away JB will have an interview with a news station in Mississippi for an anchor position, and I hope he gets it. It's been his goal to get a full time position in front of the camera, making the transition from behind the scenes.
If we break up because of the distance, that's ok. That's just life.
And I tell my parents this, but they're adamant in the fact that my relationship with JB is just a huge blemish in my life/future.
Why? He's honestly the greatest guy I've ever dated. He's really considerate, he's responsible, motivated, established... the only things I can fault him for is his persistence in wanting to take me to a scary movie, and sometimes he can be really cheesy.
If our relationship falls apart, that's ok. IT'S TOTALLY FINE. I don't know how many times I can repeat this. Maybe I should get a banner made?
Don't get me wrong, I'd love to have a long-term serious relationship* with JB, but with the directions we're going in... The most I can do is remain optimistic, and do everything on my end to make it work.
And whenever I tell this to my parents, they don't listen to me. I know everything they're telling me comes from a good place, but I'm 19. I'm leaving home permanently in a little over a month.
I need to be able to make "mistakes" and trust my own judgment.
Am I crazy?
*I don't plan on marrying ANYONE until well after I'm old enough to purchase/drink my own alcohol at my wedding.