Sunday, February 19, 2012

The past few days...

...have been rocky.

I don't really know what's been going on with my hormones or whatever--- that thing that causes emotional ups and downs.

As of late I've been hyper-emotional nearly incapable of keeping myself in check while in public. According to some of my friends, I just need a break from everything.

The only problem is the fact that I won't be able to take a break. Not with the tests, homework, and labs I have due next week. Also, I have my scholarship interview in North Carolina this upcoming weekend (that I'm really excited about) and there is no way that I'm letting anything keep me away from that.

While I would like to hang out with my friends in order to escape the high stress environment at my house, I feel guilty because of my little brother. Maybe it's because I'm hypersensitive right now, or maybe it's because he's started to notice that I've been around less, but every time I leave the house he cries and begs me not to leave and I can't handle it. Every time it gets harder to leave, and I know that it's only going to get worse.

But he's only 3. He doesn't understand what college is, he's never been separated from anyone in our immediate family for more than a week. Needless to say, I'm a mess right now.

I honestly think that I'll start to feel better after March. I've been preparing for prom and my interview and I've been high strung because of it. Friday I bought my dinner dress, and I have my interview dress, and my prom dress will be arriving in the mail in two days. I think I'm going to take a hiatus from dresses for a little while after everything is over.

BUT on the bright side:
The puppy thinks she's a cat.


  1. Is that the sweater you made? :))

    It's okay to be stressed. Go crazy. Scream. Cry. Throw something that won't cause anyone harm. Listen to, er.. rock songs (?) :D You'll feel better. It's what I do. (Okay, I'm a bit crazy, but hey I'm still alive! ..Sort of)

  2. Nawwwww :) You do have a lot of dresses. I like them and all but it is possible for too much. I do hope things calm down for you.

  3. I get you, it's hard to find the peace sometimes and your brain is screaming "OH MY GOSH." Over and over.

    On the bright side, you have an adorable dog/cat. ;)

  4. Dear Lizzi,

    I understand the stress you must feel. We'll get through it, though. Only a few more months and then hopefully an awesome summer.

    I guess it's always good to have something to look forward to, y'know?

    Much love,
    Your Equally Messy and Stressed Friend in Florida

    P.S. I don't know why I made this read like a letter.

  5. you jusr need to talk some time for yourself, and relax. :)
    keep being super wonderful <3

  6. *just

    ...oh my goodness.
    I can't type...well, i should be asleep..its is 03.48am...oops. :D

  7. That dog is adorable. You should post more pictures of him doing adorable things.