...have been rocky.
I don't really know what's been going on with my hormones or whatever--- that thing that causes emotional ups and downs.
As of late I've been hyper-emotional nearly incapable of keeping myself in check while in public. According to some of my friends, I just need a break from everything.
The only problem is the fact that I won't be able to take a break. Not with the tests, homework, and labs I have due next week. Also, I have my scholarship interview in North Carolina this upcoming weekend (that I'm really excited about) and there is no way that I'm letting anything keep me away from that.
While I would like to hang out with my friends in order to escape the high stress environment at my house, I feel guilty because of my little brother. Maybe it's because I'm hypersensitive right now, or maybe it's because he's started to notice that I've been around less, but every time I leave the house he cries and begs me not to leave and I can't handle it. Every time it gets harder to leave, and I know that it's only going to get worse.
But he's only 3. He doesn't understand what college is, he's never been separated from anyone in our immediate family for more than a week. Needless to say, I'm a mess right now.
I honestly think that I'll start to feel better after March. I've been preparing for prom and my interview and I've been high strung because of it. Friday I bought my dinner dress, and I have my interview dress, and my prom dress will be arriving in the mail in two days. I think I'm going to take a hiatus from dresses for a little while after everything is over.
BUT on the bright side:
The puppy thinks she's a cat.