It's finally time!

Monday I leave for Shreveport MEPs to check in, Tuesday I swear in to active duty, and then I hop onto a plane to fly to BMT!

IT'S HAPPENING.

Just a quick reminder of those planning to write me while I'm in: I can't receive care packages of any sort, please don't send photographs (I have to get those cleared through my MTI) and just remember to check my Facebook page to find my address! My family will be posting it on my wall as soon as they find out.

I'll see you guys in 10 weeks!

I leave in exactly 7 days.  HOW INSANE IS THAT?!  Seriously though.  One week.

I need to organize my suitcases.  I need to pack my bag full of supplies that I'm taking down there.

I get an adrenaline rush every time I think about it.

Something I need to remember

I am really hard on myself.  Really hard.

If I screw up knowingly, it's devastating.  Stupid, little mistakes are the worst because I know that they could have been prevented if I was just more thorough and aware.

Right now I'm beating myself up for screwing up homemade cornbread, and it's bad.  Constant self doubt, self criticism, internal berating.

What's silly is that no one is angry at me.  But I can't help but feel angry at myself.  I wasn't fully focused on what I was doing, and I accidentally added the batter into the oil instead of vice versa.  Ughhhhhh.

What am I going to do when I get to BMT?  Every action is going to be scrutinized under a magnifying glass.  If I'm like this when I screw up little things at home, how am I going to be when I get down there?

I just need to remember to take deep breaths.  Don't get upset, just fix whatever's wrong.  It doesn't do any good to get angry at myself.

Constant focus.  That's what I need to put all my energy toward.