Overridden With Angst

For some reason the world has decided to hand me a big pile of steaming crap in the form of leaves that I have to rake out of my front yard.

Not that I hate autumn leaves, but raking them up Amish style and then bagging them up is a pain, especially when you have a decent sized front yard.

I wouldn't hate raking the leaves if the yard would actually stay clean for more than three hours, but I guess that would be too easy. My dad being a lover of all things torturous refuses to let me use anything besides a rake because I'm young, soft, and need some toughening up. Needless to say my weekends will now consist of raking the yard, tending to my various bug bites and blisters attained from said activity, and homework. I lead a very glamorous life.

And to top it all off, in the next few weeks I will be stressed about making sure that my semester grades are up to par, meaning that I'll most likely be holed up somewhere studying and attempting to stay zen whilst alienating most of my family.

In order to keep myself from completely going off the deep end I've been trying to find little positive things to look forward to like watching DVRed episodes of Conan, art class, and leftover thanksgiving food.

Blahhhhh I just want Christmas Break to come around along with my birthday so that I can de-stress and whatnot.

Random Fact #1

Most kids in Russia are given birthday pie instead of cake. Russia sounds like my new favorite place.

The History Channel sucks the fun out of errthang

No lie, all day I've been watching the History Channel and everything, and I mean EVERYTHING I was ever taught in grade school about Thanksgiving is a lie; however, I'm willing to forgive the History Channel for ruining my previous assumptions about the relationships between the native Wampanoags and Pilgrims due to the fact that they have shows like Pawn Stars and American Pickers that seem to fuel my never ending want for useless junk.

I hate to say it, but I've been kind of disconnected with the internet and other forms of communication because I have been halfheartedly trying to go off-grid in order to satiate my growing conspiracy theories and whatnot and.... yeah.

It's obviously not really working.

Anyways, nonsense aside I'm gearing up for the big turkey feast. This year I'll be making the yeast rolls, and in order to prepare I've watched a few Good Eats episodes here and there. That Alton Brown is a genius.

I'll probably spend my weekend recovering from food overdose.

How about you guys U.S. bound?

You know what sucks?

• Finding out that someone you thought was cool is actually really, really lame.
• Getting stabbed by a grammar Nazi despite disclaimers stating your poor upbringing in grammar.
• Failing at NaNoWriMo
• Having a raging headache
• Being paranoid
• East Texas weather patterns (which are virtually nonexistant)
• Crazy AP teachers that make essay contest entries a grade
• Early college apps

And you know what makes all of the above better?

THANKSGIVING BREAK :D

Soooo...

I know it's been a while since I've posted, but I've got a good excuse, really!

But.... I'm not going into it right at this moment.

Anyways, the picture, you know from last post?

It's the top part of a pomegranate!

But silliness aside, I've been sort of preoccupied by starting all my scholarship/college app essays. Most of them are pretty generic, but since I plan on applying for some of them at the end of this school year I'd rather have them done now in order to avoid the impending stress.

Avoiding all stress had become virtually impossible, but I'm doing my best and treating myself every now and then. And by treating myself I mean watching Conan, reading Ke$ha's interview in Seventeen, and taking really long hot showers while listening to Edward Sharpe and the Magnetic Zeros. My love/hate for physics grows daily, and my grades have kind of evened out to a steady B, which isn't too bad for being an advanced class, but isn't too good because I feel like I should be doing better in there. Oh well.

Also, just an obscure somewhat fruitless question: Does anyone know where to get film for the Polaroid izone200? (other than ebay, lomography, and B&H)

Can you---

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---guess what fruit I cut this off of? Hi five to those that can!

Say whut?

So since signing up for NaNoWriMo I've written about 2,000 words, and yes I know I'm behind. While some might criticize my decision to commit to something as time consuming as writing a 50,000 word book in one month, I feel that if I don't do this now, I'll never do it.

And I'd like to say that I at least participated and failed...

It makes for good small talk I suppose.

I have a debate tourney this weekend, and I'm going to be there all by myself. It's going to suck. As much as I hate to admit it, I really don't do well by myself. Oh well, this'll give me time to write more.

It feels like this year everything is moving so fast. There is definetly not enough time in the day to do everything that needs to be done. Sometimes I find myself choosing between the wealfare of my mental health verses the wealfare of my grades. Needless to say, my mental health comes first.

Also, I've been finding myself less enthused about all of my extracurriculars. I feel like my core classes ask so much that anything on the side can just screw themselves because I'm too tired to care about them.

I hope dearly that I'm not like this as an adult. Not hating my life has always been a goal of mine.

Ah, btw, this is my Spock action figure. As you can tell, he's an aspiring photographer.

Bad Monday

So apparently most of my extended family hates me because I lack the normal human skill of personal connection.

Guess what? All my life they could care less about what I said, and now of all times they expect me to want to talk to them? It doesn't work like that.

Maybe, just maybe the reason why my brain instantly shuts down and reverts to "observe" mode around them is because that's all that I was allowed to do for the longest time.

Sorry, but again, it doesn't work like that. I may be a partial snob, but at least I'm not a loud obnoxious pig.... ohhhhhhhh burrrrn.

Now that my rant is over, I'm doing NaNoWriMo!!

Are you?